Pen to paper does not do justice to the anguish one faces in the harsh realities of the saints walk. Never the less sometime in 2003, I sensed a strong incline towards the Bible, so I started reading now and then. I was originally brought up in the Presbyterian faith, and became a member by water sprinkling. Later I moved on to the Pentecostal faith but did not remain their for long either. I was living for the world and wanted to find another side to life, so I kept searching."
To the saints of THE MOST HIGH YAHUWAH greetings. May HIS love peace and grace surround you always. In response to your request for a testimony, by the mercies of the living YAHUWAH, and according to Isaiah 40-1&2, which states: Comfort ye, comfort ye MY people, saith your YAHUWAH, Speak ye comfortably to Jerusalem, and cry unto her,, that her warfare is accomplished, that her iniquity is pardoned: for she hath received of the MASTERS HAND double for all her sins. I hereby openly declare unto you all Priests of YAHUWAH (a very special and privileged people) my simple testimony. Pen to paper does not do justice to the anguish one faces in the harsh realities of the saints walk. Never the less sometime in 2003, I sensed a strong incline towards the Bible, so I started reading now and then. I was originally brought up in the Presbyterian faith, and became a member by water sprinkling. Later I moved on to the Pentecostal faith but did not remain their for long either. I was living for the world and wanted to find another side to life, so I kept searching. Soon after a friend of mine invited me to share in their fellowship at a prayer meeting. This I did and was convicted to tears, hence me re-dedicating my life to Yahushua again. Three days after surrender to Yahushua, my son was held up at our gate by gunmen and his car stolen from him. Soon after my entire life started spiraling downhill.
My spouse hated me, rejected me ridiculed me, and I suffered mental anguish. I was terribly ostracized. Further on, a nephew of mine visited me and tried to kill me with a knife, right then and there my son surrendered to Yahushua, and YAHUWAH used him to restrain my nephew until he was subdued after which he left. With my life in turmoil the MASTER asks me "Is your all on the altar of sacrifice laid?" I replied yes MASTER though I was in a state of bewilderment and confusion. The ELOHIYM MASTER said to me:" Paulene I have called and chosen you, I will give you a shepherd's heart, hard and difficult times are ahead, but I will be with you, and MY HAND is upon you. Abide in ME, for without ME ye can do nothing. I have given you a shepherd's heart to go out to those who know ME, and want to know ME more, to those who are hungry and thirsty, lonely and depressed. Remain faithful and persevere, hard times are ahead, but do not be afraid I will be with you." These words hit me like a ton of bricks, I just burst into tears and cried my heart out, since coming through so much and to hear this there is more, so I cried and cried. I mourned for three (3) months, never the less the MASTER who is a YAHUWAH of judgment and mercy was kind to me, for HE allowed me to grieve for a while, and to search my heart thoroughly before the ultimate and final answer. As I reread HIS words I noticed HE said be not afraid, I will be with you, immediately my troubled soul calmed. Humbly I surrendered to HIS call and HIS will.
I started evangelizing about the love of Yahushua and distributing books and tracts to those whom the MASTER would have me witness to. Then the MASTER spoke again saying HE is placing me in unfamiliar territory in which I minister to all kinds of people, angry homeless, possessed and others, but the spirit of YAHUWAH was quite evident. As I journeyed on the MASTERS mission, I learned the discipline of preparation, declaration of the Sovereign Deity, and Warfare Praying. Having accomplished that part of the training the ELOHIYM MASTER declares I will now be released into the kingdom of darkness. I had to wrap the words of YAHUWAH all over me. It was a frightening and difficult period in my life, demons and evil spirits tormented me day and night, some nights I am not able to sleep and just keep marching up and down my house and declaring who I am in Yahushua, and asking YAHUWAH for mercy and strength. The ELOHIYM MASTER had caused my spiritual eyes and ears to be opened. This led to a serious turning point in my life, as I continually wrestle and contend with the powers of darkness. My focus on Yahushua and HIS words could not wane or diminish, I must remain strong. When at times I feel faint and weak, 2 Corinth.12-9 says:YAHUWAH'S grace is sufficient for me, for Yahushua strength is made perfect in my weakness.
Being trained and fortified in spiritual warfare demands complete and total obedience with discipline. A good portion of my life was under the clouds of darkness, but through it all the ELOHIYM was with me. I got invited to a mission overseas by church folks, and in spite of being housed in a hotel, I was left to sleep on the floor, but through YAHUWAHS mercy it never happened; even at the end of our stay as we headed to the airport for departure, I was destined to remain until the following day. A strange country, never been there before but YAHUWAHS providence was eminent. Soon after getting back home I was instructed to give the only car I had to a pastor, without hesitation, I obeyed, and again became the subject of ridicule mockery and a laughing stock. I died a thousand deaths all over again. I still continued on my missionary journeys on foot, after which I was required to do a forty days fast. Oh my! I said MASTER I can't, as I am tired weak drained, this must be the end of me. JEHOVAH who is ever so faithful and merciful, says to me, do it moderately, so we agreed on a four days per week for ten weeks fast. While doing this fast I was prompted to ask the MASTER why these forty days fast? This is the MASTERS response:
after which I humbly bow at HIS feet and begged for mercy, as I am an unworthy servant, who am I? that a KING should bleed and die for. This was the straw that broke the camels back (my back). I have now come to understand YAHUWAHS words more in obedience with humility. The MASTER said to me that HE requires my undivided attention, with tears in my eyes and a broken and contrite heart I yielded my all to HIM in humble compliance. We have now come into spiritual intimacy. There was upon me a burning desire to know the MASTERS name, and with earnestness of heart I enquired of HIM, and as I slept the name YAHUSHUA was embedded in my spirit. Immediately I felt joy and happiness divine. At daybreak I could not help but told it to my son as well, who was also overjoyed. Continuing on our journey I went before Yahushua to seek about some earthly blessings, and the answer was given, Sow your corn in good soil, oh how crushed I was and even feeling stupid, having realized that all I had done before was in vain, for I had not yet entered the Sabbath. Immediately upon confession of lack of knowledge and ignorance, I sought help from YAHUSHUA, who has been bearing me on eagle's wings all along, who made me to understand it all starts at the beginning. I was taken to Genesis 1 and 2, along with Exodus 20.
I exclaimed oh my goodness! this is it! for the first time I read about the SABBATH, and made to understand what it meant. The scales had fallen from my eyes. I became the happiest person on earth. I cried again when I have now come to experience the unconditional love of YAHUSHUA towards someone like me oh wow! I felt like the woman at the well, whom after meeting the Messiah, and being filled with new wine went about declaring HIM MASTER of the SABBATH. The following day I showed it to my sons, and they agreed and accepted this fact to be so. I am now to find the place of YAHUSHUAS worship, so I enquired of HIM once more, and was shown in a vision a place on a hill, which when discovered it was a 7 Day Adventist Church. Oh what joy sublime! We never delay; we went to church the next Saturday. I must confess that as we walked through the isle to take our seats, there was an unprecedented peace, a tranquil calm, and a serenity that enshrouded me beyond description. My sons also experienced it for they spoke about it. Two weeks following we were immersed in water baptism again. We had the peace of YAHUSHUA that surpasses human understanding. Glory to YAHUSHUA. In light of this newness in Yahushua, along with the joy peace and calm that was upon us, as we shared our experiences with our friends and others, a sudden darkness fell upon us from all sides. The hatred that came over us could be felt and touched. We were again subjected to scorn ridicule animosity and anger in the most degrading manner. I contemplated to myself, what a travesty, what have we done. How could such a sacred cause arouse so much hostility? I was numbed, for I did not understand this depth of darkness. Nevertheless we trusted in YAHUSHUA and we did not fear, as YAHUSHUAS hand was upon me. Worshipping at the Adventist Church went on for some time but was cut short due to the deadness and dryness.
Something seemed wrong, which caused me a grave burdening pain. Humbly I prostrate before YAHUSHUA. It was there on the threshing floor that it was revealed to me about a shrine dedicated to Baal. I immediately searched the Internet for the meaning of such, and found a page written by Ellen White regarding the long delay, and this startled me some what to see that the church has lost her ground. However I pressed on, taken to Habakkuk 1 regarding the burden that the prophet did see. It goes: O Master how long shall I cry, and thou wilt not hear, even cry out unto thee of violence, and thou wilt not save. Why dost thou show me iniquity, and cause me to behold grievance, for spoiling and violence are before me, and there are that raise up strife and contention. Therefore the Law is slacked, and judgment doth never go forth, for the wicked doth compass about the righteous, therefore wrong judgment proceedeth. Then YAHUSHUA answers Behold ye among the heathen and regard and wonder marvelously, for I will work a work in your day, which ye will not believe, though it be told you. I said to myself wow! to HIS reply and will wait to see my outcome, as I continue to trust and obey HIM. Studying the scriptures full time is my delight. Divine instruction lead me to Ezekiel 3-22, reiterating that the hand of the MASTER is upon me, and HE said unto me, arise go forth into the plains, and I will there talk with thee. This property I had acquired in 2003 will now be my new abode. This move took place on August 14 2009. It has no electricity, and not the most comfortable, but I had YAHUSHUA as my hope against all odds. At my lowest ebb, YAHUSHUA showed me a homeless young man who had taken up residence in an unfinished part of the house, and directed me to pray for him, this I did in humble obedience and gratitude for the MASTERS mercy. I realize like Peter YAHUWAH is no respecter of persons. Even to this day; this marvelous and precious light being shone through Worlds Last Chance to me is shared with him, as we study the scriptures together. I was also impressed to study Deuteronomy 11 and 12 and Exodus 34 profoundly regarding the" Renewed Covenant" I was shown too in Leviticus 23 the Feasts of Yahuwah.
Upon careful study it became clear to me that the Adventist Church is not in keeping with YAHUWAHS commands and doing them. Deuteronomy 12-8 states clearly Ye shall not do after all the things that we do here this day, every man whatsoever is right in his own eyes. A new dawn has lighted upon me in locating YAHUWAHS true 7 DAY SABBATH. It did not take me long as I cried out like the Psalmist, in Psalm 40-1 saying, I waited patiently for the MASTER, and HE inclined unto me, and heard my cry. Psa. 42-2 says my soul thirsteth for YAHUWAH, for the living YAHUWAH, when shall I come and appear before YAHUWAH? Psa. 43-3 says O send out thy light and thy truth, let them lead me, let them bring me unto thy holy hill and to thy tabernacle. Praises and adoration be unto YAH who has brought me up out of a horrible pit and placed me in HIS great light on July 14, 2010, through you all HIS dear saints, where I now learn to worship and enjoy YAHUWAHS true genuine and holy 7th day Sabbath. I must confess that I have given up all to follow the Lamb whithersoever HE goeth. I love you all dearly saints of the most high YAHUWAH. The Atonement in October brought me even closer to my Father in Heaven. I love Psalm 32-8 which says, YAHUSHUA will instruct thee and teach thee in the way which thou shalt go, HE will guide me with HIS eye.
Let me take this precious moment to encourage us all to stand strong in YAHUSHUA, to be faithful and of a good courage, for HE will see us through. The darkest days are yet to burst on us, nevertheless our living faith must come forth with humility. We must give of our selves fully to YAHUSHUA so that HIS work can be accomplished through us. Galatians 2-20 says I am crucified with Yahushua, nevertheless I live, yet not I, but Yahushua liveth in me, and the life that I now live in the flesh, I live by the faith of the Son of YAHUWAH, who loved me and gave himself for me. Dear saints the night before the dawn, let us hold fast the faith in keeping the commandments of YAHUWAH, and having the testimony of YAHUSHUA whereby we are sealed unto redemption.
With heartfelt love, your sister in Yahushua.
Paulene Jackson.
Jamaica.
November 24, 2010